Ms. Shi Shi's World

God's Little Girl

2009-11-05T11:32:00.004-05:00

Picture by Lori Starnes

Young Girl what is wrong?
You've been torn, talked about and that's wrong
Don't Cry, dry those pretty brown eyes
This is your song, your God's Lil. Girl
Care for yourself and never let that boy get you down
Stay young and don't try to be a woman to quick
Cause if you do, they will treat you like a trick.

Never let that man take over
Respect yourself, your mind, body and face
Girl you are "Gods" gift to this human race
Important is what you are
So never forget that
Don't make yourself that clown

Mistreatment is not your test, so don't feel stressed
Showing your body, settling for less
Get you killed is that what you want
No! Remember you are God's Lil. Girl

Be strong young ladies, for the strength is within you
Tell yourself I love me for me
No one can still your joy, because you're God's little girl.

Darkness

2009-11-04T14:53:00.000-05:00

WrittenBy Anshia B. Tull

**(Please note this is only a poem, I havent lived this situation, so I'm blessed to say that, but I also write for friends that have. I painted this character from a conversation i had with a young lady trying to make it through)**

I’m young and I’m stuck in a world
With no one to love me
Stuck in a world where it seems that
I'm ugly, judged and at any moment
Ready to expire my life
I have no purpose for being here right?

Stuck alone so I turn to drugs, I turn to lust
In men and I can't quite comprehend who I am
So I say call me darkness, I see nor feel any
Glow of light surrounding me
My light stays dim and I beg and plead
For people to call me darkness

My daddy left me and my mommy
Constantly abused me, so verbally that my mental
Seemed to constantly ring sounds of hatred
I constantly scream
Why did you plan for me and by the time you birth me you didn’t want me
Your post partum depression has affected me into my early twenties

So I walk around looking like a clown
As well as the drugs immersing in me
As defined I am absence or deficiency of light

I am darkness

The world doesn’t see me and I only awake
In negative things so it seems I'm darkness
I wonder what my expiration date is going to be
Can I speed that up quickly or do I wait and pray for change

I've been waiting
Waiting since I was born to escape
What seemed to be everyone else’s utopian society?
What people didn’t know it was not all that it was cracked up to be

If someone had only listened
Listened to me cry in the rain
Listened to me starve when mommy didn’t want to feed me
Listened to me scream when he decided to rape me

If only someone had listened
If someone had only cared
I wouldn't have escaped This life by Killing Me

**Pause that thought**

As I wake in my hospital bed
God spoke to me in my dreams and he shed light
He tells me it will be ok
So I pray and he says I will never leave you and please don’t forsake me
I will bring peace and light will shine
You will no longer be stuck in darkness
Nor will they call you darkness

You will be blessed my child and I will never leave you lonely
Just believe in me he says. I then say
I love you lord and I don’t want to live in my darkness!!

I want to live in your light and live to see a better day!
Therefore I'm no longer darkness

Longest Train Ride

2009-11-02T12:43:00.001-05:00

Today was the longest train ride of my life..

Only by my mental state, you see the last ride was with him.

So as I ride I cry, because the feeling instantly brings me back.

For the love still holds strong but we will never be again, because of bad judgements made on both parts.

This feeling has been here before but now I have a feeling this will linger long and I am the sadness to this train ride.

This has to be the longest train ride of my life.

Many shattered expectation of things that were suppose to be,

For now in this moment it won't be.

So as I cry on this train ride,

I realize this will be a long winter,

maybe the coldest winter ever and at times

I don't even know where I am going.

I just keep praying that I will get to that destination.

A destination that could turn back the hands of time.

A destination where you feel good and safe inside.

A destination that doesn't make u hurt others or others hurt you.

Could this train ride be taken me there?

I don't believe so, because time can never go back, it can only go forward.

So as this continues to be my longest train ride.

I will always cherish the many moments and remember the good with the bad.

We once were, and now we will can't be, and the memories we shared makes this my longest train ride.

Forgive, live, learn and Press towards the finish line. Be thankful for all the good that was received.

Actions

2009-11-02T12:38:00.000-05:00

When they drift away
You can't not cry and say I miss thee
You see as the sun rises
You start remembering the prize that you lost.

For the heart becomes bitter
For the one you love
Is now gone so you ponder
You toss, you turn and wonder
What are you to do now

For they left in the autumn and decided not to look back
You tap your fingers swiftly on the table
You feel as if someone punched the wind out of you.
Your heartbroken, but their torn as well
They will feel scorn for the agony that has been caused then your
left saying you never miss a good thing until its gone

Due time and Due Season

2009-05-08T16:45:00.000-04:00

Picture taken by Marcus Young
By: Yours Truly Anshia B. Tull

As seasons change, so does life

We sometimes come across obstacles

But keeping God first you are able to proceed

So in your new season think of all the little things

You have faced and ask yourself

Is this Season going to be better for me?

Of course it will be whatever you let it be, but

In due season, you can always see where God

Has and will bring you

Its in many seasons were able to get a second chance to

Change things... to refresh our mind, body and soul.

So I’ll just say your in control and its

All in due time and due season

Common Interest

2009-05-08T16:32:00.000-04:00

Common InterestWhere do you come from? Who are you? Why are you here? Why, Why, Why……Just some Common Interest happening here!!!

We wonder why and we want to know the reasons

We ask ourselves, how this can be

That we get to this level of chemistry

So fast, but feels so right, such a thrill but is all too real

For you appear in meaningful hours

For your character displays a beautiful light

Even in darkness your light would still glow

And you ask me how do I know?

I know because I see it, I’m mesmerized by it and I feel it

My vision is clear and I am not blinded

There’s a common interest happening here!

For it seems I’ve met you before, maybe somewhere

Else in history, like from another lifetime or something

So I’m left feeling speechless, everything just keeps shining bright

Like happiness and joy surrounds you as a human being

You tend to give off a positive light

Like Curtis Mayfield sings “These are the Makings of You”

I’m not quite sure to who you are and why you've come here

I do know we have a Common interest that I adore my dear!!!

Hezekiah's "Cure for the Common Soul"

2009-05-08T16:27:00.000-04:00

Artist HezekiahMixxed by: Mr. Sonny James

Hezekiah Presents Cure for the Common Soul

The time has come for Rapper Hezekiah's

"Cure for the Common Soul" Mixtape, which dropped

May 1st.

We're also coordinating interviews with magazines, bloggers, and online news sites. So if you’re interested in an interview, appearances or drops, please contact anshia@briclynentertainment.com.

At this time I've added Hezekiah's Blogs, which have aired online over the last several weeks. We are excited and look forward to this Mixtape. Also watch out for his third album coming this summer. Please stay tuned and thanks for the support!!Hezekiah's Cure for the Common Soul Mixxed by Mr. Sonny James

http://www.zshare.net/download/594114800061218f/

www.myspace.com/hezekiah3

www.youtube.com/hezekiah234

www.twitter.com/hezekiah3rd

CURE FOR THE COMMON SOUL MIXTAPE BLOGS

Blog #1 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BRK5I_1z4GE

Blog#2 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6X7hVBVsiMg

Blog#3 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sjR6IDUZBU8

Blog#4 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o0Z29qOZUYU

Blog#5 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zp5SrzxVLD4

Blog#6 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bKB_jiT_V-w

Blog#7 Removed

Blog #8 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AaalmwPfZ5w

Blog#9 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qj5vf3DKaqc

Blog#10 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uULMPY7O7-I http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KSAXcCQ_pfU

Blog #12 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KSAXcCQ_pfU

Blog #13 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WX_8npu2_GI

Musical Lover

2009-05-08T16:24:00.003-04:00

Once upon a time I fell in love with a pretty boy, but he was way to pretty for me. Once upon a time I tried to love a basketball player, but he didn’t love me. I fell in love with a scholar, but he was way too smart and political for me. I fell in lust with a musician, but we all know that was not supposed to be! In it all, God continued to love me, I just had to stop seeking all the wrong beings and Keep holding onto his trust, for his Agape love is always more than enough!

I just keep on falling!!!I fell in love with his rhythm, also with his flow and his vibrating sensations remind me of Common’s Go!This seems like melodies from heaven and his rhythmic pattern can sometimes drive me insane.He puts me in a natural high and sometimes the volume is so loud I just can’t turn him down, so I keep calling him Music, which happens to be his name.

For he speaks through my skin, he whispers around my ears, he yells, he screams, he laughs and he becomes soothing! He is everything I need in moments of harmonic clarity. There are many Moment’s that seem so real like déjà vu; I just know some of these moments have already appeared.

My common interest and I relate to his genius, and I sometimes become speechless. As the beautiful Minnie Riperton would sing la la la la la la, do do do do do, for loving you is easy.So, you wonder why I smile and it seems like we shall have endless love, it’s because he is music and I become his muse!

However, I have fallen in love with the feeling music gives me and when I do fall in love again; music will always be a part of me. In every relationship there’s been a song to show the emotional identity of what it was and what it will be. The love I have for music will never escape me.Music inspires me ceaselessly to strive higher and higher towards my shining star and allows love to peep in whole-heartedly!!

Untitled Poetry

2009-03-08T15:11:00.000-04:00

Untitled Poetry 101
By: Anshia B.Tull

You see the day I give up
Is the day you worship me
It’s a day when you smile
Repeating the words that say
We knew she couldn’t do it
Just for that, there will be knowSuch thing present

That day shall not happen
Today is the day that I stand
Saying I will, I shall and I mustAchieve!!!
You see your negativity will
Never deter me, it will only
Make me a stronger being
Who is accomplishing and succeeding!

See I don’t believe in, I can’t or the impossibility
However, I do believe in my dreams, goals and desires
Can be and is a possibility on the way to happening!!
And this is my untitled poetry!!!!!

ARTWORK

2009-02-18T16:56:00.000-05:00

Artwork!!!

As an art form you painted I.
I then resembled human woman.
Beauty Natural beyond all measures.
As sweet as onion breath, because with you boo;
Something as funky as that is sweet to me.
For we lay in creative climates
Not to touch but to stir into each others nightly eyes.
For you rubbed my hand afraid to sleep before I.
So I lay in amazed daze trying to fight Z’s
Only to awake in the morning Artwork of you and I!!!

Mr. Bill the Collector

2009-02-18T16:41:00.000-05:00

He pounds and he pounds

He rings and he rings

Because he is coming to collect

Collecting the goods from me, becauseI owe indeed.

Constantly running from the man but

As usual in a instant he catches me

So I sit locked up in my personal jail cell

Which happens to be my brain, just confused

By all these strange thoughts

Surrounding me, so I continue to write

Because I'm scared I may miss a beat

The beat to my poetry.

It's clear as to who I am and what I strive to be, but the man is still after me.
I guess its time to grow up and stop running from the man and pay
Mr. Bill the Collector oh yes indeed!!!!

2009-02-18T10:29:00.001-05:00

"LOOK IN MY EYES"

I know what Mary J. Blidge meant when she said

"If you look in my eyes and see what I see"
What would you see?

You would see clutter thoughts.

Weird hearts, for someone that means so much to me!

: )

You would see a girl climbing to the top.

Sometimes it seems I can’t get enough.

Trying to escape the madness of my life and the negative things

Surrounding me.

; (

So I write to clear my thoughts.

I’m in search of new beginnings.

I’m in search for that man that I want to be with so much.

Not too much in search for him, but for things to fall in place should I say!

;)

He holds my heart, even in distance.

I guess I have to keep this secret to myself until that day comes.

"If you look in my life and see what I see"

; )~

I see many people not being truthful with others.

I see many people running from past loves.

I see people not being honest about whom they really are.

I see men and women moving to the next person, because their not

Complete with their present love.

: (

So why does my heart hurt.

I guessI feel bad for others, because I’ve been there.

I guess I feel someway because I’ve been that woman your man thought about.

I’ve also been that woman that has lost her man and had the broken heart.

Although my innocence is clear and truthful,

I hurt for your struggle to stay.

I’ve been there and there is a better way.

"If you look in my eyes and see what I see."

: U

I guess, "Music is my lover," it loves me back.

It makes me feel good and relieved.

It stands there with me

Through and thick and then.

It makes me feel loved again and again.

Just waiting for my king to come running to me.

It brings peace, when I’m weathering many storms.

So for now I’ll say "Music is My Lover"

"If you look into my eyes and see what I see"

; )

Take a close look at me and see if you understand me.

Look into my dark brown eyes, feel my natural hair tell me do you see inside beauty.

I love to hear horns play they relax the energy of

Blood flowing through my 25 year old veins.

Say can you see ME if you look in my eyes and see what I see!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SUCCESS IS UPON ME!!!!!!!

HE

2009-02-18T09:24:00.000-05:00

He gave me intimacy

He gave me sweet kisses

He makes me feel like a woman should

When I look into his eyes, I see strength

Where did he come from, he exemplifies realness

He is so strong; I could have never imagined this

That's why he remains my lover

He helps me erase all the pain from the ex lover

For he is my jolly good fellow

He inspires me to be me

He prays for me and with me

For I believe he was Heaven sent

I know longer have feelings of resentment

For I am me and he is he!!!!

Hurting from the Ways

2009-02-18T08:40:00.000-05:00

BY ANSHIA B. TULL

Hurting from the ways, mistreatment was the game

The game that led to people being insane

What about the wisdom, what about the knowledge

That is our youth that has to be saved

Saved because our children hurt

Yes their young, but we don’t fully understand

Understand that they are the future and we demand

Demand that they can be all they can be, but this is not the army

Our Children hurt, they need love

Love that is unconditional; so,

We must pray everyday; have you heard a family

That prays together will stay together

Together remaining that our children come first

They are the society for tomorrow

Break the trend of violence

Just like parents, children hurt

Hurt because they are confused

Left alone

One meal everyday, when they really need three

Three, yes so parents get it together

Our children, our youth must come first

If not they will continue to hurt

Hurt in a race that can’t be defeated

I say this because times are changing

But are we progressing!

Hmm!Maybe yes and May No! But

Just to tell you so, our children must come first

Or we should just forget about

How tomorrow’s future will go!!

Wake up our children indeed hurt!!!

Hello World

2009-02-18T03:02:00.000-05:00

Welcome to Ms. Shi Shi's World,

This Blog is to basically show my creative side and to keep you updated on what I'm doing.

What Projects I'm working on and getting a glimpse of my orginal poetry. Pretty much the daily info of Ms. Shi Shi. Writing is creating

word expressions so people can visually see how your feeling. Enjoy folks and stay posted for

the creative juices that will flow very soon.

Peace,

Ms. Shi Shi